Short but Sweet

Short but Sweet

This is how funny life gets. When you've wished for something to happen and it came along right away. You thought its going to be very light, no pressure and all but I think this kind of setup really does have a time line. Not sure though because some sort most of the time does have a time line or expiration for that matter.

It will start with butterflies and flowers. In this case red roses. :)
Staring with each other. Looking at each other eyes without blinking. Shy away sometimes if its been awkward.
Long kisses. And quick stolen ones. In different places or even when just going down the stairs. Exciting, isn't it?
Feels like you're young again. Back when dating is nothing but happiness. Its an extraordinary feeling. Like you're high and so alive. You will forget what loneliness feels like.

After that, you get to be comfortable with each other and that's when complication arise. One would start asking until when do you plan to continue with "Just Fun" setup. There would be demand that as if you're into something serious. Then he would tell you how he very much wants to be with you and include you on his plans. This one is a killer, he was too ill but he came all the way from a very far place just to see you and kiss you like there's no tomorrow, like it will be the last, like its goodbye. He's kissing you all over your face while whispering that he loves you. Damn! That sends shiver down my spine. There's guilt but now its more than that.

The earth has shifted. Now you're the victim of the game that you're playing. You wanted him to make you the center of his universe but he couldn't. You tend to question, what are you really ready to give? You're asking him too much but you are not sure if you have something to give. Why can't you just let him be for now until he's certain.

You're failed relationship can explain this. You are tired of waiting for someone to change for the better, always at the bottom of priorities, always giving but rarely receiving.