I wondered why I did not get addicted to drugs and now I know why. Every time I read novels or watch K-dramas, I feel like no one should bother me. I don't feel like doing anything at all and just focus on what I am currently watching or reading. So I told myself, this is what addiction feels like. Well without the self-destruction tendencies of course. At least I wouldn't get into some sort of trouble. I guess its healthier than other forms of addiction.
But then come to think of it. Its the same idea because you are being transported to another world while doing these. Its that kind of feeling that will make you high. "Escaping from reality" is the perfect description. That is the true meaning of addiction.
Its like being part of another world. The world of the characters in those novels or dramas. Most of their stories have happy endings and that is our main goal in life. To experience happy endings. Maybe because my life is far from the point. It must be the reason. When you are full of disappointments, expectations and reality hits you so hard but running away is not an option, so you tend to be in the character's shoes to at least fight with them, run away with them and be happy at the end.
Its like a do-over of your life actually. Of the things that might have been. Its like a good dream which you would not want to wake up from. If there is a time machine, the time and places that you want to go back to.The idea of being in a perfect world where you want to be stuck in.
These are obvious results of your sadness and emptiness. Its like sleeping your way through it all. Just to make sure that you will not go back to where your life was.You want to be where the sun rises and never sets.
