If Only

I was just watching my favorite movie of all time - "If Only" and whatta surprise tears suddenly flushed down my face. Its been years since I last saw this movie and still it made me cry. It made me think, what if I would be given the chance to see what will happen in the future. Actually that guy from the movie was very lucky to have that opportunity. He was given the chance to make things right. Only few people are lucky enough to experience that. If you are not prepared or you don't know what you really want to happen when the time comes, that would be a problem. It was a perfect title for that movie and the script is quite good. Its pretty much the words that you need to say or you choose to say. Doing things that you rarely do or going to places you've never been to.

What made me cry is when the guy is thanking his gf for showing him the meaning of love. For being that someone who completed him and that he would have not known love at all if it wasn't for her. I have totally forgot if I ever heard those words before. Well I think I haven't. The disadvantages of having a partner who doesn't know how to say his feelings. Its as if I don't deserve to hear it or I don't serve my purpose. It will be the most tempting or should I say sweetest temptation I will ever be if someone will tell me those words I would love to hear.

Until now I don't know if I've fallen out of love or I'm just really looking for something else. Which made me think, is this how it feels when you are about to wake up the next morning and you would tell yourself - 'I don't love him anymore'. I really don't believe in that or at least I want "me" to believe that when two people are bound with responsibilities and facing that responsibility together, you don't just fall out of love. Old-fashioned? not really- its all about the family.

So sad........Its as if I haven't been in love for a while or felt loved.