Empty

EMPTY

Walk in to the darkness
Silence is deafening
Wishing to hear a little laughter
Your innocent face to lighten up my day

Turn up the volume
So I won't have to search
For what my heart seem to long for

It sucks to feels alone
Look somewhere, anywhere
As every day weakens all of you

How I'd wish it could be easy
Can't stop the tears
Even my fears

God, please hold onto me
I know, like all things
It will come to an end..

Collection of Dreams

Dreams Obsession

These are all I was able to gather so I'd know what's up with my life and so I can be guided by them. This is actually what happens when you don't just talk to anyone about anything. When you are being choosy to the kind of people you let in your life. When you don't get the chance to talk to people who would understand you. They are just too rare nowadays. Or maybe I'm just too particular.

*********To dream that you are shopping for or buying clothes indicates that you are apprehensive about being accepted by others. You aren't sure if you are the correct fit for the position you are taking on.

-May 2013

********To dream that you have a bloody nose means that your character is under attack.

-May 2013

*******To dream that a rat is biting your feet is analogous to the rat race that you are experiencing in your waking life.

-May 2013

****************To dream of seeing or being bitten by a snake implies that you are afraid and anxious about some issue in your life. Perhaps this dream is suggesting that you should be aware of a pending situation that may cause you harm. The snake can also represent someone in your life who is heartless, cruel, and treacherous. 

-Early 2012   

My Newborn

Its so hard to be away from you. Its like losing something so valuable. I feel so incomplete like the most important part of my body in order to function is missing. I long to hear your laughter; when you call me when you need me to do something for you; when you cry when nobody else seem to understand you. 

When you were born, you made me believe again for something real and you made me believe that I can be whole again. You brought me happiness and fulfillment I never imagine I can experience again. You made me the person I didn't think I can be. I never wanted to be away from you even a single day. If I had a choice back then and even now, I won't choose to be away from you or you from me. It saddens me every time I remember why we have to be apart. 

Baby love, everyday the thought of being far from you brings tears to my eyes. It makes me come up with impossible or things far from reality just to beat the distance. 

My love, just always remember that I love you til the ends of the earth. Nothing should ever come between us even the darkest days of our lives. My love for you will be there with you wherever you are. All my prayers are for you, so you'll be safe, you'll learn to love, you'll learn to stand up whenever you fall because my love is always alive in you. There will a come time, we will be together again, very soon my love....very soon!

Tiresome

Tiresome it is...how many years has it been? I keep waiting and what's sad is the thought that it won't happen anymore. What could've been, should've been and would've been after wasting long years. Looking away while seeing what's obviously happening. Pretending that it would pass by soon and hoping for the best. The word "best" becomes unachievable at times or should I say most of the time. It only happens for the fortunate ones. Its wrong impression to say that I'm unlucky because most of my life I feel so blessed and I really appreciate it. I'm thankful for it everyday. There are just some days when things don't happen the way you envision them. Not all dreams are bound to happen. Even your childhood fantasy will never come to life. I think its because, if these things happen, what's the point of having the courage to fight for what you believe in and being able to make sacrifices. That's what makes life exciting and worth living right? The "calm after the storm". The thought of having to go through the journey..journey of love, pain, sorrows, hope and love again.

10/10/10

It was an eye-opening mass that I had this morning. The priest was saying something like we should know how to be grateful for something or someone. That to show appreciation is to remain loyal and trustworthy. To go to church is not an obligation and we should not be looking at it that way. We go to church because we want to show God that we love him. He also asked about us saying thank you to our partners in life. We thank God because of the blessings we received from him however, do we also thank the people around us who showed love and care to us?

We do know that to show God that we love him and that he matters to us is by loving others. The priest is also saying like if we cheated on our wife/hubby and was forgiven, it doesn't mean that you will do it again. True love means forgiveness so stop continuously hurting those people who love us. This person who has been with you through thick and thin. When you are nobody in the eyes of the people surrounds you.

Its really me

Leos are doers. "I will" is the key phrase for this sign. There's a lot of energy packed into this sign, and they're always going to be busy, regardless of whatever else is happening around them. They are ambitious, creative, and optimistic. It's not enough for a Leo to just do the job. In order to suffice, it must be done to the absolute best of their ability. Once committed to an employer, they will go all-out, but the best situation for the Leo is to be his or her own boss.

Careers that allow for the Leo's dramatic flair, such as acting and entertaining, are ideal. Such positions give the Lion free rein. Other occupations such as management, teaching, and politics are well-suited, too. Anything that puts a Leo in a leadership position will give this sign the opportunity to do what comes naturally.

Leos love to surround themselves with the things they fancy. Because money usually comes readily to the Leo, there's always more where that came from. Money is meant to be spent as far as this sign is concerned - and spend they will. Generous in spirit, a Leo will give away their last dollar to help a friend. They're always confident that there will be more, and there usually is. There's never a lack of work for a Leo. In fact, there's generally more work available to them than they can keep up with.

If Only

I was just watching my favorite movie of all time - "If Only" and whatta surprise tears suddenly flushed down my face. Its been years since I last saw this movie and still it made me cry. It made me think, what if I would be given the chance to see what will happen in the future. Actually that guy from the movie was very lucky to have that opportunity. He was given the chance to make things right. Only few people are lucky enough to experience that. If you are not prepared or you don't know what you really want to happen when the time comes, that would be a problem. It was a perfect title for that movie and the script is quite good. Its pretty much the words that you need to say or you choose to say. Doing things that you rarely do or going to places you've never been to.

What made me cry is when the guy is thanking his gf for showing him the meaning of love. For being that someone who completed him and that he would have not known love at all if it wasn't for her. I have totally forgot if I ever heard those words before. Well I think I haven't. The disadvantages of having a partner who doesn't know how to say his feelings. Its as if I don't deserve to hear it or I don't serve my purpose. It will be the most tempting or should I say sweetest temptation I will ever be if someone will tell me those words I would love to hear.

Until now I don't know if I've fallen out of love or I'm just really looking for something else. Which made me think, is this how it feels when you are about to wake up the next morning and you would tell yourself - 'I don't love him anymore'. I really don't believe in that or at least I want "me" to believe that when two people are bound with responsibilities and facing that responsibility together, you don't just fall out of love. Old-fashioned? not really- its all about the family.

So sad........Its as if I haven't been in love for a while or felt loved.